i doubt this will help

but lately i've been feeling like no matter what i do or how i feel, people could give two shits about it. like i'm not depressed but i feel alone even though i'm surrounded by people. i feel every artistic person at some point in time feels this way. but what can i say this feeling comes back time and time again....no amount of writing or crying makes it go away... and that upsets me more. i hate that my body is this ship of anger. if u cross me, its likely that if u try and bring me down, i'll bring u down before u can dent my ship. i harbor all these feelings until they become too much to bare but i can't talk to anybody, because nobody really understands why i feel how i do. and its 10x more difficult to try and explain it. idk but i was right, writing about how i feel right now isn't helping at all. *sigh

breathe you in

just for a moment
to get the sweet scent
of you
to breathe you in
as if it was my dying wish
i just want to
breathe you in
cuz then i'd carry
u around forever