idk

In the darkness I am alone, no candle to light, no bird to sing. sitting in my own self pity, jealous of those with the one thing i don't have. every where i look its like a reminder. "look what i got! nanana" o how nice of you to throw it in my face.

Just yesterday it seems as if my emotions were under raps but clearly they are not & I have no clue how to express myself to anyone at this point but i'm gonna try i guess. so here goes

Lost with no direction of home
can't find that big North star
tripping over logs
stumbling into puddles of feces
filth filled air
drives me into my shell
closed up like a clam
surfacing to dry land
picked at by a seagull
as i slide down into its stomach
here i am in dark
only to be shitted on again
lost with no direction of home
no familiar landmark or face
no signal on my cellphone
no street lights on
i guess its just me and the darkness
alone tonight.
staring into each others eyes
trying to build up courage
but too afraid to fight
a battle shall not be started
rather fear shall be overcome
i lost to you once
so it can't happen again.