he's swam though
rivers of my emotions
climbed mountains of my wont's & cant's
& yet has remained by my side
crossed lakes & oceans of my hurt
to build a bridge to my most
vulnerable organ; my heart
just for him to cross
trying to mend wounds not yet
closed, that still bleed from
time to time
wanting to doctor my feelings
to prevent my heart
from crying anymore

Fading love

to hold on
& fight
seemed worth
all the pain
but lately
this fading love
seems to be chipping away
like corroded cement
our love is becoming
a sun-bleached picture,
a vague memory
of what was good
once upon a time

rico suave

he lurks in the darkness
of my mind
he lives in my every fantasy
knocks on every window
& door
begging to be let in
he knows the right things to say
to get his way
reminds me of those wild,
passionate nights
where my dreams carried
me with the wind
& dropped me in the lap
of this dark mysterious man
with good looks& moussed back hair
he's my Ricky Ricardo & i'm his Lucy
& whenever my thoughts don't
pay him a visit
i have some 'splanin to do
Rico Suave
the man my mind
always runs back to
when i've been hurt

Lost hurt little girl
afraid to grow up
to live, to love, to laugh,
to take pride in who she is
afraid to be loved
like she deserves
scarred by her past
feeling as though she's
loved for all the wrong reasons
a gray cloud rains
on her daily
the memories that take her
dark places
that remind her that
she's unable to love
to live, to laugh
without holding on to who she is
& not being able to find herself
in present day

its him

its his hand
that breaks the day
his heart
that wakes the home
his soul
that speaks all languages
his mind
that says all i'm thinking

its him
where i find my refuge
my peace of sanity

use your imagination
let it guide your fingertips
as they walk across my body
taking detours at my most
sensitive spots
divulge me in such ecstasy
as my body moans & twitches
& cries out for attention
only you can give it
laying side by side
i fit to you like a missing
puzzle piece
mentally & physically
i melt in your eyes
get moist from your touches & kisses
i'm hypnotized by everything that is you
i fall victim to your games
& sweet talk
if i'm guilty of anything
it's because i'm lost in
everything you are

what i want

crying out for your touch
to feel loved or even as if
your heart is where i belong
to feel complete in your arms
to forget how hurt i am
to be lost in everything you are
that's what i want
& i got to have it
to melt from the touch of your lips
pressed against mine
to swim around in your mind
& get lost in every thought you have
i want your voice to be my guide
&help me find my way back to you
that's what i want
& i got to have it
to have all your love rain down on me
to let your passion lotion my body
to let every word you say to me
seep into every pore
i want to be one with you
mind, body & soul
that's what i want
& i got to have it